It’s a sad day. Not just because this is the last day of the NaNoPoBlano challenge but because tonight, I sang my last ‘twinkle twinkle little star’, to my son. It’s a funny thing, but after 20 odd years of parenting I didn’t think of this as being a milestone. Quite often though, these milestones are slotted in between minutes, that are hurried and unexpected. And this was definitely the latter. Why the significance? Maybe it’s because he is my last, maybe it’s because he is my loudest or maybe, because he chose this milestone himself.
He lay in his racing car bed, looked at me and said, “I’m getting big now Mummy. No more songs – I can go to sleep all by myself”.
While my throat tightened and I swallowed hard, I also felt the joy that you feel when your child makes a decision based upon them realising something about themself. This is definitely something I have been so much more aware of with smallest. It doesn’t matter how long they have had a bottle or stayed in nappies; or in this case how long they like to be sung to sleep for, what matters is that they feel themselves when the time is right for them to grow. Allowing them the space to feel when things are right, helps them to transfer this knowledge to other situations in life. Making sure they aren’t imposed upon, helps them learn to feel based upon what they experience within, rather than due to someone else’s expectation.
So it’s a bittersweet moment. I am just blessed to have the opportunity to have sung this nursery rhyme in the town where its lyrics were composed, to three beautiful children- who maybe one day will do the same for their own children.
And that’s it from me for this challenge. It’s been a blast and I have really enjoyed reading some amazing and inspiring posts. From the inspirational work of Anyes to the information loaded posts by Steven, the beautiful words of Ra and all in between, I have enjoyed it all. Much love and goodnight 👍